Candice

#celebrateselfie09

…And she saw the photographs getting dull and blurry; it’s as if they needed masking and filtering, every time. And then this happens—what’s displayed is not a pure reflection of what’s going on inside of her. She wonders what went wrong though—is it because of her subject or is it because of her natural way of reacting to her subject’s obscurity? Maybe the perspectives are getting old and boring, who knows? She’s feeling so uninspired; she’s feeling so unable… I think she hates the feeling of being ignored or being pushed away; and that’s her way of striking back. But part of her actually wants to just disappear and go dead; hoping she would be found again and be brought back to (a new) life, and hoping that her shutter would be clicked again… She’s waiting. She’s waiting for a new way of seeing things—of a new and infinite perspective.

I feel for her,
I feel for Candice…
**ǝsɹǝʌǝɹ-uı-ʎǝןıɯs**

Almost…

**This is a poem written way back 2002 (i’m guessing hehe basta sometime during my early days in college) and dedicated to a friend whom I’ve never met in person… Then I dedicated this again to another guy when I was in 4th year college (ni-recycle ko, so what! hahaha!)… And now, I wanna dedicate…

And this familiar feeling…

…it kills me still… it rips off my heart like it always did before… crazy! annoying! And yet I submit myself to such familiar feeling, defenselessly. i dream of waking up someday unaffected, unruffled and completely well… and those dreams? that never fail to give me a feeling of (false) hope… they haunt me… they’re…

Secret Refuge

Nagpapaka-slack na naman sa kalagitnaan ng ka-busy-han! :) Pantanggal-umay lang sa pagrereview ng mga kontrata at pagbabasa ng mga accounting standards hehehe! Pangalawang tula na alay ko kay ABTS, una yung Melancholic Episode. :) You fill the corners of my daily mooning; You keep me up when I’m supposed to be sleeping… Ignited and awakened…